Monday, April 23, 2012

The Road to Hell

Well I'm standing by a river
But the water doesn't flow
It boils with every poison you can think of
And I'm underneath the streetlights
But the light of joy I know
Scared beyond belief way down in the shadows
And the perverted fear of violence
Chokes a smile on every face
And common sense is ringing out the bells
This ain't no technological breakdown
Oh no, this is the road to Hell



And all the roads jam up with credit
And there's nothing you can do
It's all just bits of paper
Flying away from you
Look out world take a good look
What comes down here
You must learn this lesson fast
And learn it well
This ain't no upwardly mobile freeway
Oh no, this is the road to Hell
- Chris Rea




Silence is a text easy to misread.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

The Color Purple

Purple symbolizes:

The Fool - Oneness
Death - Limitless
 The Star - Inspiration
The Universe - Light 

Shug: More than anything God love admiration.
Celie: You saying God is vain?
Shug: No, not vain, just wanting to share a good thing. I think it pisses God off when you walk by the colour purple in a field and don't notice it. 

 
Celie: You saying it just wanna be loved like it say in the bible?
Shug: Yeah, Celie. Everything wanna be loved. Us sing and dance, and holla just wanting to be loved. Look at them trees. Notice how the trees do everything people do to get attention... except walk?
[they laugh]
Shug: Oh Miss Celie, I feels like singing! 


 
Shug: See Daddy, sinners have souls too

(Memorable Quotes from the movie: The Color Purple)

Make the choice to live by higher principles and see how your perspective changes

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Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Let it be...

Dis vroegoggend, verlede Sondag, wat ons, in twee motors, die Witbank afdraai vat  oppad na Dullstroom uit Centurion. Is weliswaar amper dertig jaar laas wat ek ‘n kerkdiens bygewoon het. My walging in “kerk” het my darem nie verhoed om deur die mooiste kerke in Italie, Spanje, Duitsland en Nederland te loop nie… maar selfs dit het later ook maar boring geraak. Nee, die drie lelike susters het my afgeskrik van kerk vir baie jare… om darem mense op grond van velkeur te klassifiseer vir ‘n plekkie innie hemel, ‘n plekkie innie kerk en dan nog met selfverhewendheid met hul boetie, die Staat,  ook evil incest te pleeg, was genoeg om my baie lank weg te skrik.

‘n Geleentheid het hom voorgedoen om saam ‘n paar joernaliste van die gerespekteerde Mail & Guardian te gaan uitvind hoekom die NG nou, amper 18 jaar na apartheid, lelik begin leegloop. My belangstelling in “Volhoubaarheid” as konsep, aan die een kant, en ‘n diepe hoop dat die drie lelike susters ook maar die paadjie van die ou regering sou loop, andersyds, het my geprikkel om die oggend saam te ry.

Die vriendelike dominee se rustige stem het seker bygedra tot ‘n vreedsame gevoel wat in my binnekant was. Sy humor toe hy die span van die M & G welkom heet en die gemeente gerus gestel het oor die “snaakse” mense in die kerk het my laat smaail. Half skuldig het ek my plakkies nog dieper onder die stroewe kerkbank gedruk. Die vriendelike Hindoe kameraman, die “Girl met die goue stud deur haar mond” en die joernalis, netjies aangetrek, suit en al, moes seker nogal “snaaks” gelyk het.

Die oorhoofse projektor het “God se bye” aangekondig en ek het gewonder of die dominee nie die ^ oppie “e” vergeet het nie. My gedagtes het teruggedwaal na ons Boksburg kerk lank gelede, waar die Bybelstories van Liewe Jesus my verbyster het… Liewe Jesus was my hero. Hy kon magic doen. Namate ek groter geword het het ek geleer dat ek in die hel gaan brand as ek my nie absoluut oorgee aan Liewe Jesus en sy kwaai pappie nie.



Na ‘n kerkkamp by Winkelspruit is ons selfs beveel om ons plate te vernietig… daai plate en musiek wat vir my alles beteken het. Dit was die eerste groot skeur met die kerk wat in my kindergemoed plaasgevind het. Die walging in die kerk het op universiteit finaal oorhand gekry toe dit duidelik word dat ek beslis nie een van die uitverkorenes sou wees nie.  

Kan mens n Heilige Koei hoor val? 

Later jare was dit selfs ‘n vreugde om te besef dat ek beslis ook nie een van die uitverkore groepie wou wees nie. Na ‘n lang journey het ek besef dat, as daar ‘n God sou wees, hy nie vir my “bye” geseg het nie,  net maar die kerk wat “bye” geseg het. En hier sit ek nou in ‘n kerk waar dit vir my voel of God nou vir hulle “bye” geseg het….

Voor die diens begin is die kindertjies uitgelei na die kinderkamer… sommige rituele was nog steeds dieselfde… Die trae sang en die kwaliteit van die orrelspel het verder bygedra tot n gevoel van jammerte wat oor my gemoed gespoel het.  Nie gedink ek sou diep jammerte voel vir hierdie instansie wat my soveel dae wakker gehou het oor die groot en belangrike vrae van die lewe nie… nie gedink ek sou nie met absolute weersin die spektakel aanskou wat vir soveel mense gelieg het... en dit steeds nog doen.

In die teekamer na die tyd was fotos van die bazaar … buite het n vriendelike kerel my vertel dat ek by Mohamed sigarette vir tien Rand kan koop. Sou hom later die dag weer raakloop by die sentrum vir Epilepsie.

Selfs die dominee het aan ‘n sigaret gesuig...

Hoenervleis het op my arms uitgeslaan toe ons uitklim by die klein pressedwood kerkgeboutjie innie township. Die sang was oorweldigend. God seg hello. Die Umfundisi vertel haar storie van hoop met drie ‘elle’. Die kindergesiggies sprankel. Die groot mense stem saam. ‘n Hele paar kom skud my hand en seg welkom. Hier is ons nie “snaaks” nie. In die verte staan die nuwe kerkie half gebou…



And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
- The Beatles



Twee keer kerk op een dag...

Koffie innie hand vat ons die lang pad terug na Tshwane… genoeg padkoskaffeine vir die volgende dertig jaar…. 


Tuesday, March 13, 2012

i Started a joke ...

Three years of focusing on one thing... getting the iStart2 movement off the ground...

Reminds me of a song I often listened to back in the seventies...

I started a joke
which started the whole world crying
But I didn't see
that the joke was on me, oh no

I started to cry
which started the whole world laughing
Oh if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me
(Beegees)

3 years in 12 and a half minutes ...


Monday, March 5, 2012

Sound of silence

Doris: I'm unhappy.
George Valentin: So are millions of us.
( From the movie: The Artist)


Hello darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

How many are silenced, because in order to get to their art they would have to scream? (Ann Clark)

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
'Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

Soon silence will have passed into legend. Man has turned his back on silence. Day after day he invents machines and devices that increase noise and distract humanity from the essence of life, contemplation, meditation. (Hans Jean Arp)

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
 
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

Real action is in silent moments. (Ralph Waldo Emerson)

"Fools", said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you"
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed
In the wells of silence

Create, artist, do not talk. (Johann Wolfgang von Goethe)

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls"
And whispered in the sounds of silence

 

Shut Up and Play your Guitar. (Frank Zappa)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Wanting to be a Red Indian ...


Wanting to be a Red Indian
- Franz Kafka

Ah,
if one were a Red Indian,
on the alert immediately,

[talking about the white men coming]
  Kicking Bird: How many?
  John Dunbar
: Like the stars

and if leaning into the wind on one’s galloping horse one went quivering over the quavering ground,
over and over again till one stopped using the spurs,
there being no spurs,

There's a highway of stars across the heavens

A hope and a dream at the edge of the sky
- Johnny Clegg
till one threw away the reins,
there being no reins,
and one scarcely saw the terrain out in front as a well-mown stretch of moorland without even a horse’s neck now or a horse’s head.

Kicking Bird: I was just thinking that of all the trails in this life, there are some that matter most. It is the trail of a true human being. I think you are on this trail, and it is good to see.
(From: Dances with Wolves)

May the stars carry your sadness away,
May the flowers fill your heart with beauty,
May hope forever wipe away your tears,
And, above all, may silence make you strong.

Chief Dan George

Saturday, December 31, 2011

The way old friends do ...

Three Questions


It once occurred to a certain king, that if he always knew the right time to begin everything; if he knew who were the right people to listen to, and whom to avoid; and, above all, if he always knew what was the most important thing to do, he would never fail in anything he might undertake.

And this thought having occurred to him, he had it proclaimed throughout his kingdom that he would give a great reward to any one who would teach him what was the right time for every action, and who were the most necessary people, and how he might know what was the most important thing to do.

And learned men came to the King, but they all answered his questions differently.

In reply to the first question, some said that to know the right time for every action, one must draw up in advance, a table of days, months and years, and must live strictly according to it. Only thus, said they, could everything be done at its proper time. Others declared that it was impossible to decide beforehand the right time for every action; but that, not letting oneself be absorbed in idle pastimes, one should always attend to all that was going on, and then do what was most needful. Others, again, said that however attentive the King might be to what was going on, it was impossible for one man to decide correctly the right time for every action, but that he should have a Council of wise men, who would help him to fix the proper time for everything.




But then again others said there were some things which could not wait to be laid before a Council, but about which one had at once to decide whether to undertake them or not. But in order to decide that, one must know beforehand what was going to happen. It is only magicians who know that; and, therefore, in order to know the right time for every action, one must consult magicians.

Equally various were the answers to the second question. Some said, the people the King most needed were his councillors; others, the priests; others, the doctors; while some said the warriors were the most necessary.
To the third question, as to what was the most important occupation: some replied that the most important thing in the world was science. Others said it was skill in warfare; and others, again, that it was religious worship.

All the answers being different, the King agreed with none of them, and gave the reward to none. But still wishing to find the right answers to his questions, he decided to consult a hermit, widely renowned for his wisdom.

The hermit lived in a wood which he never quitted, and he received none but common folk. So the King put on simple clothes, and before reaching the hermit's cell dismounted from his horse, and, leaving his body-guard behind, went on alone.

When the King approached, the hermit was digging the ground in front of his hut. Seeing the King, he greeted him and went on digging. The hermit was frail and weak, and each time he stuck his spade into the ground and turned a little earth, he breathed heavily.

The King went up to him and said: "I have come to you, wise hermit, to ask you to answer three questions: How can I learn to do the right thing at the right time? Who are the people I most need, and to whom should I, therefore, pay more attention than to the rest? And, what affairs are the most important, and need my first attention?"

The hermit listened to the King, but answered nothing. He just spat on his hand and recommenced digging.
"You are tired," said the King, "let me take the spade and work awhile for you."

"Thanks!" said the hermit, and, giving the spade to the King, he sat down on the ground.
When he had dug two beds, the King stopped and repeated his questions. The hermit again gave no answer, but rose, stretched out his hand for the spade, and said:
"Now rest awhile-and let me work a bit."

But the King did not give him the spade, and continued to dig. One hour passed, and another. The sun began to sink behind the trees, and the King at last stuck the spade into the ground, and said:
"I came to you, wise man, for an answer to my questions. If you can give me none, tell me so, and I will return home."

"Here comes some one running," said the hermit, "let us see who it is."

The King turned round, and saw a bearded man come running out of the wood. The man held his hands pressed against his stomach, and blood was flowing from under them. When he reached the King, he fell fainting on the ground moaning feebly. The King and the hermit unfastened the man's clothing. There was a large wound in his stomach. The King washed it as best he could, and bandaged it with his handkerchief and with a towel the hermit had. But the blood would not stop flowing, and the King again and again removed the bandage soaked with warm blood, and washed and rebandaged the wound. When at last the blood ceased flowing, the man revived and asked for something to drink. The King brought fresh water and gave it to him. Meanwhile the sun had set, and it had become cool. So the King, with the hermit's help, carried the wounded man into the hut and laid him on the bed. Lying on the bed the man closed his eyes and was quiet; but the King was so tired with his walk and with the work he had done, that he crouched down on the threshold, and also fell asleep--so soundly that he slept all through the short summer night. When he awoke in the morning, it was long before he could remember where he was, or who was the strange bearded man lying on the bed and gazing intently at him with shining eyes.

"Forgive me!" said the bearded man in a weak voice, when he saw that the King was awake and was looking at him.

"I do not know you, and have nothing to forgive you for," said the King.

"You do not know me, but I know you. I am that enemy of yours who swore to revenge himself on you, because you executed his brother and seized his property. I knew you had gone alone to see the hermit, and I resolved to kill you on your way back.


But the day passed and you did not return. So I came out from my ambush to find you, and I came upon your bodyguard, and they recognized me, and wounded me. I escaped from them, but should have bled to death had you not dressed my wound. I wished to kill you, and you have saved my life. Now, if I live, and if you wish it, I will serve you as your most faithful slave, and will bid my sons do the same. Forgive me!"

The King was very glad to have made peace with his enemy so easily, and to have gained him for a friend, and he not only forgave him, but said he would send his servants and his own physician to attend him, and promised to restore his property.

Having taken leave of the wounded man, the King went out into the porch and looked around for the hermit. Before going away he wished once more to beg an answer to the questions he had put. The hermit was outside, on his knees, sowing seeds in the beds that had been dug the day before.

The King approached him, and said:
"For the last time, I pray you to answer my questions, wise man."

"You have already been answered!" said the hermit, still crouching on his thin legs, and looking up at the King, who stood before him.

"How answered? What do you mean?" asked the King.

"Do you not see," replied the hermit. "If you had not pitied my weakness yesterday, and had not dug those beds for me, but had gone your way, that man would have attacked you, and you would have repented of not having stayed with me. So the most important time was when you were digging the beds; and I was the most important man; and to do me good was your most important business. Afterwards when that man ran to us, the most important time was when you were attending to him, for if you had not bound up his wounds he would have died without having made peace with you. So he was the most important man, and what you did for him was your most important business. Remember then: there is only one time that is important-- Now!



It is the most important time because it is the only time when we have any power. The most necessary man is he with whom you are, for no man knows whether he will ever have dealings with any one else: and the most important affair is, to do him good, because for that purpose alone was man sent into this life!"

Times of joy and times of sorrow
We will always see it through


Oh I don't care what comes tomorrow
We can face it together
The way old friends do 
(Abba)

Have a great 2012!


Leo Tolstoy's short story: Three Questions